A Stitch in Time

For a lot of summers, my grandparents would roll up in their motor home. I’d bound in, and we’d jet off like bandits escaping a high-stakes heist.

Grandpa drove, his knuckles white on the steering wheel, while Grandma Beth and I settled in the back. This was the '80s, mind you, but our entertainment system was firmly stuck in the 1930s-‘50s. They owned a portable VCR and a hefty stack of black-and-white VHS tapes that showcased old Hollywood glamour. I loved those films too much, always wishing I'd been born in another time, preferably one that required elegant gowns and numerous song-and-dance numbers. While Ginger Rogers twirled on the tiny screen, Grandma taught me everything from tinsel painting to origami, always optimistic that my adolescent hands could handle even the most delicate work.

One summer, the TV blared “As Time Goes By” from “Casablanca.” Grandma’s eyes, previously fixed on the dramatic scene, suddenly darted to a basket of yarn. "You'll love this," she said, her voice cutting through Humphrey Bogart's world-weary dialogue. 

She deftly turned a simple loop into a chain, the hook flashing in the dim light. And as Rick told Ilsa, "Here's looking at you, kid," that’s how I learned to crochet.

I thought about all of this today because the scene felt comfortingly similar. My youngest daughter, Indy, curled up next to me. But instead of the bumping rumble of a motorhome and an old film score, the cool, blue glow of a Netflix series washed over us. I passed her a crochet hook and a slightly large ball of variegated yarn.

“Okay, loop it through,” I instructed, imagining the phantom presence of Grandma Beth nearby.

As Indy worked, the yarn’s color shifted—from a rusty orange to a pale pink, a sunny yellow, and finally, a perfect lavender. And as the colors changed, so did our conversations, the steady stream of our spoken thoughts mirroring the progress of the stitches. In the orange section, she talked about her boyfriend and navigating the complex world of teenage relationships. The pink and yellow brought out a funny moment from her marching band practice. But when we finally made it to the lavender, my baby girl talked about her hopes for the future and how deeply she loves dreaming about the life she’s striving to have as an adult.

This simple moment became a shared space, a confessional woven into a gorgeous scarf. Each completed row seemed to pull out a different moment from Indy’s life. These weren’t just crochet rows; they became a colorful, albeit slightly misshapen journal of our secrets. I’m still unsure why, but the depth of her words and the memory of my childhood suddenly filled my eyes with tears.

So, that night, I dug through the back of my closet and finally found something extraordinary: a small section of the blanket I crocheted with my grandma. Even this tiny piece looked lopsided and utterly amateur, filled with so many skipped stitches and tension struggles that it seemed subpar. Yet, holding it now felt like the most beautiful thing in the world. It wasn't the quality of the craft that mattered; it was the quality of the time.

I thought about something my sweet grandmother wrote in her "happiness file,” and I couldn’t help but smile: "At the end of it all, the most treasured moments are with the people we love."

I’m so grateful to be sharing her legacy with my own children. Who knew that a little quiet time and a ball of yarn could connect one heart to the next? I guess my grandma did.